Too many irons or not enough steel?

Greetings,
        Have you ever sat down and listed all of the things you are trying to accomplish? Just now I finished listing the various changes I'm trying to make in my life. Some are external, others internally generated and focused but there are a great many of them. There are so many things I'm trying ot do, re-do or undo that I'm tempted to just toss up my hands and do whatever is easy.

        This is an admission that is not easy but one I've got to make, to myself and to others. I do not wish to be a responsible adult. I don't want to choose between the easy and hard, fun and toil. Yes, delayed gratification sucks rocks. I admit it. And I know what will happen if I don't choose rightly.

        Furthermore, I'm not ashamed or concerned that my kids or other folks' kids will read this and hear an adult saying such things. We owe those we bring into this world a great deal, first of which is the truth, reality, straight up - no chaser. Then we owe them an example of how to deal with that reality with an eye on the ultimate prize.

        Now that I've said out loud that I don't want to make the changes, they seem easier somehow. What appeared to me a mish-mash of things heading in many directions at the same time now appear to be paths that interweve but do not interfere. Indeed some things appear to amplify or accelerate other matters. Grace it seems has made it's way in again and transformed something. How wonderful.

        Oh there will be a day when a box of Ding-Dongs is calling to me. That call may come tonight for that matter. Yet now I can remember the larger reality that I've seen. I can with the grace of God, make this happen.

        Thanks be to God.

        Ad Astra Per Aspera,
        Kevin